It’s my birthday today, another year older. I have officially passed my “Taylor Swift birthday”. To be honest I don’t love my birthday, I always feel this pressure to do something crazy fun and then feel disappointed if it doesn’t seem as fun as I pictured it in my head. It’s silly all these expectations you can put to just one day! Because of this I don’t really like to plan anything major for my birthdays anymore, just like to keep it casual, it’s more who I am anyway! Or who I am now. We were looking at old photo’s today and it is crazy how different of a person you can change into over time. When I turned 18 the only thing I really cared about was that I was legal age to go to a bar…now I am married and have little Greyson laying next to me in his bassinet as I write this! Oh how things change!
It’s funny though how everything you do goes into becoming who you are. Even though I feel so different from that 18 year old girl standing in line to get into every bar in Edmonton, I don’t regret those times at all. If it weren’t for those times I wouldn’t have some of the friends I do, and I wouldn’t have met the love of my life. Regret is a funny thing, you hear people say it so often but I truly believe we shouldn’t have regrets. (Okay, well there is obviously different situations… I am not talking about really horrible and tragic things that happen) I am talking on a smaller scale, day to day stuff. Or regretting being a different person in your past. I think it’s good to see where you have come from, and where you have grown in certain area’s. As my fav Miley Cyrus has said 😉 “we should celebrate progress, not perfection!”
I want to take that mindset into this next year of my life. Looking back at this last year, there are things that I am happy with and things I am not as much. One thing I really want to improve is my confidence in myself. My whole life I have struggled with my self-esteem. And honestly that is what held me back from starting my blog/youtube channel sooner. I am so afraid of what other people think, or accidentally hurting someones feelings that I often back out of doing things I want to do. Or just trying anything new! I really don’t want to continue that, I want to be who I am, and I want to encourage Greyson to be who he is by example. I also don’t want to regret that I haven’t been that way before, it’s all part of the journey.
So, that’s that. I am 23 now, I am going to continue working on my confidence, working on being the best wife to Adam and best mom to Greyson, and working on my blog/channel! I appreciate so much the support I have received so far, and also to the people in my life who challenge me and push me to be the best version of myself! I love you all. Thank you and Happy Halloween!
her: aritzia sweater | zara jeans | call it spring booties
his: urband outfitters hoodie | zamboree joggers | timberland hightops
babies: carters halloween outfit | mymila toque | converse sneakers